NEW!

2012-02-03T15:30:00.002+08:00

Its not fair. Why do I have to wait for you aimlessly and painfully when you're probably enjoying yourself inside? Why do I have to wait for you when I cannot confirm that you'll wait for me in the future too? Why?

2012-02-02T23:22:00.002+08:00

I'm tired. Tired of acting that I'm happy and alright around people. Its only day 3 and obviously I'm not used to it. Listening to alex's emo playlist at work made me tear up so much that I had to hide in the slide to calm myself down. I'm not okay. This is way to much to bear. I may sound like a loser now but its really hard for me. The daily 10 to 15 minutes phone calls are pathetic too. Stupid army why must you do this to me?

2012-01-31T22:21:00.002+08:00

This is more difficult than I imagined it to be. I never expected it to hurt so much. Although it is just a mere 17 days, it really feels like an eternity. Fuck okay no I'm not gonna sound like a whinny bitch on my blog. No thank you.

Too sad to function.

2012-01-11T23:13:00.002+08:00

Work is tiring as hell but i'm really enjoying myself. One week and not bored of it yet so yes good job to me. (HAHA #thatspunny)

So the boy's ordeal is over, and everything is back to normal (despite the fact that he is not allowed to come to my house for the rest of the week). 2 more weeks to enlistment sianz. Ohwells he's gonna come out earlier anyway.

Tmr is gonna be busy. Sending evelyn off and then rushing down to work. How to tank ah i have been waking up early for the past week Zzzzz.

In love with this cover of The Script's "Break Even"

:'(

2012-01-08T07:29:00.003+08:00

Travelling to work at this hour of the day. Its as good ad going back to school Zzz. Ohwell at least work has been treating me pretty well. I get to kayak and swim almost eveerytime I work since I'm new (and the others are prob bored of that). The pay is pathetic but I'll get ised to it. And maybe work hard to get a pay raise.

So sick of you, your actions, words, and defiance. I'm really tired. The last thing I want to deal with after a tiring day of work is your nonsense. And that lie about how we're not supposed to hide anything from each other. Of fuck this shit I'm not gonna tolerate this crap anymore. I'm at that fine line of breaking.

2011-11-25T02:16:00.002+08:00

So A's are almost over, and I'm proud to say that i probably flunked it. Not that i care though. I never believed that examinations were a good indicator of intelligence. Doing well just means that you are good at memorising stuff. And not doing well would not kill me. I can still find a job and stuff and lead a possibly harsher life. Still, I'm not gonna conform to societal norms. I lead my own life.

Its pretty scary to see how some people changed so much. Those you once regarded as close friends. Them are morphing into something else that i don't recognised. And I'm really upset because these are the friends that i thought could stay close for the rest of my life. Guess i was wrong. Are guys/money really so important? More important than our friendship?

I'm such a hypocrite for doing this. I remembered telling others that i stood firm to my principles. I never befriended money grubbing people and flirts. Yet, i have a bunch of friends who constantly doing such things. I'm holding on in the hope that they would see the light one day and realise that nothing is more important than friendship. Even i don't believe that love can last forever. Hopefully they would mature and realise that there's much more to life than that.

And my nj journey has come to an end! After 2 long and torturous years. As much as i hate the competitiveness in nj, nj gave me some of the best experiences i have ever had. From YLTC, boarding, Cambodia to OGL-ing, all the new experiences and friendships i've forged are priceless. My love hate relationship with nj hahaha. And to all my brothers in nj, although you may probably never read this, thank you for being there (despite the fact that yall are always teasing me and all). Thank you for making my nj life so much livelier and.... awesome-r? Hahahaha. Cant wait for prommmmm!! :)

Sigh slacked for the past 2 days. Fail shopping trip, drama, movie and maple (hahaha my sad life). As much as i don't wanna conform to societal norms, that is the way society works. I better go study lest i go hungry in the future. And i definitely don't wanna go hungry in the future.

2011-10-22T22:09:00.003+08:00

So the girl is pms-ing and stuff and i'm feeling super upset and i get annoyed really easily. Acting like a real bitch recently, getting pissed off and scolding the boy for small little things. So sorry baby :(

Well i cant bring myself to study for A's. I have (more or less) given up since mugging is so pointless. I can do all the physics papers in the world and i will still get the big fat ugly U on my result slip. And im thinking of going to Australia after A's for uni. But then again the grades?money issue is literally slapping me across the face. I chose to fail so i deserve it. Its that simple.

Haha my english is erratic now the whole year of crappy gp classes have been wasted. Le sigh.

2011-09-18T22:07:00.002+08:00

So tired of failing. Its a vicious circle that i'm trapped in. And i'll be trap in that shit for a long long time. I think that there's a really high probability that i'll fail maths (which is by far the only passable thing in nj.) ah wtv at most i'll go to a poly or something

[rant]Stupid physics dept is lazy when it comes to our work but they get damn hardworking when they want to set papers for exams. And i blame this on that Chinese scholar. Beetch you should go home and not shift the bell curve. Keep your intellect in China and STAY THERE. Gosh and in their attempt to kill you they are killing all of us stupid commoners. And guess what? YOU WONT DIE. GRRRR JUST GO HOME ALREADY WE DON'T NEED YOU.[/rant]

Back to physics. :/

When your family is as supportive as how supportive obama was to osama.

2011-09-07T20:57:00.003+08:00

I shall dedicate this post to all the people in my family. Well guess what? You have all succeeded in making me hate you in a way or another. Well, fuck you all. Just because you, my so called mother, is scared/convinced by my older sister cos she's so I don't know.. Perfect? Cunning? And because I have a bitchy younger sister who does nothing in her life but be obsessed with anime and all that shit so much so that she fails he exams and tests, but yet, yall are still bias towards her. Hahah I have nothing to say. Having my sisters disturb me when I have exams is alright, but when I make abit or noise, all hell breaks. Or is it when you fucking said that its okay for them to scold me with thir fanciful language(which they obviously lack when it comes to their exams hoho)? Ah and you call me unreasonable. Hahah guess what? Fuck you all. You all are just FUCKTARDS (my sis used this lol. Cool? No?). Well guess what? Since you don't want me to run your lives, then don't run mine too. Don't give me a fucking curfew if you don't want me to study at home. Don't lock me up in this jail by eleven. I'm causing a lot of trouble eh? Why did you even want to have sex and give birth to me then? Dumbass. A moment of pleasure and a lifetime of regret. How sad awww :( but guess what? Since I'm here alr I might as well make your lives miserable. Cause its with my existence that you all feel so muchh closer right. Heh I'll grant that wish of yours. For you all the fucking bond as a bunch of losers while I survive on my own. Well love you mum/dad/sisters. <3

Ahhahha wanna fuck me up during my A's? I'll make sure I screw you up during your O's. At least I'll have an A level cert by then. And you? You'll have nothing. Nothing at all, except for your mum's undying/biased love for you. Awww so sweet. I'll see how long love can feed you. And how long it takes for you to die after they leave too. Let's see who has the last laugh. Muahaha >:)

PS: love my blog title how cool is that?? :O

2011-09-06T02:08:00.002+08:00

[Bitchmoment] You have no idea how much emotional stress I'm facing everyday. Well minus school shit and my own insecurities, I still have to worry for your well-being and face your crazy moods. And then you make me feel guilty for getting angry. Fuck if you can't deal with your life don't come looking for me. You make it ten times worse when I ask you what happened and you say 'nothing'. Fuck you mean you made me endure all this crap for nothing? Sigh this is happening way too frequently...
Yes I'm being unreasonable and selfish as you all can see. Because I'm an imperfect bitch who needs someone to care for me, and not someone who becomes a burden for no good damn reason. So go ahead. Push my limits. Come meet me in a bad mood and don't talk to me. Then spam my phone with your phone calls and messages. Look if you don't want to talk to me face to face I'm not gonna talk to you on the damn phone.
Remember that its your last chance. [/bitchmoment]

I blame A's for making me so cranky. Its 2am now and I'm doing physics. Life -.-

Am I too forgiving?

2011-09-05T00:31:00.002+08:00

Super unmotivated nowadays. I don't even feel stressed out or anything despite the fact that prelims are coming next week. I've probably given up and I'm srsly prepared to fail. Haix but I should probably not give up without a fight. So for the upcoming week, I'm gonna mug all the way and hopefully I can pass prelims. Not As or Bs, but Ds will do. 4 Ds and I'll be happy :/
I will not study at home anymore. Tv and bed are evil crap shits tempting the hell out of me. I left my tv on for at least 12 hours while attempting to do math. Suck at math though sighh. Okay I'm not making sense anymore i don't what is. Hate A's hate nj hate life kill me now.

2011-08-21T23:59:00.002+08:00

I was reading my blog post again and i realized that i sound retarded and childish. Haha but wtv too bad my blog.

I must be the lousiest person in the whole world. I cant bear to leave you but i tried to act all mean and fierce and whatsoever. Epic fail but whatever. Why is it that sometimes, i feel the the luckiest girl in the world but on other times, i feel like everything's crashing down on me. Hopefully my crazy mood swings would stop occurring so frequently cos its affecting my grades.

Just a few more months to freedom. Hang in there Shimin. You can do this. Stop lazing around and get down to work. You are capable of things you never knew you could achieve.

Reload, aim, fire.

2011-08-20T16:39:00.002+08:00

I just want to lead a happy life. I don't want to cry or to feel sad everyday anymore. Is it that difficult a request? I don't want my As, I don't want to be skinny or whatsoever. I just wanna be happy. Is it that hard?

You left me here. Without a word. Now, I'm gonna leave you.

2011-08-10T00:10:00.002+08:00

Im a lan addict sianz. Okay anyway i celebrated Singapore's birthday by playing lan, eating carrot cake, satay and indian rojak (all local food!!) and doing that mad pile of econs! Hahaha how patriotic. My LRAS is at its all time low, while my weight is at its all time high (IN TWO FREAKING YEAR:( ) Hahaha whatever i expected to have gained more weight after 2 buffets, swensons ice cream and fries, the yummy amk prata and all the nice food i have been eating. Not to forget pringles + koi :) HAHA i love my food life, hate my weight and srsly FFFFF Alevels.

Cant wait for after A's. Im gonna work and get rich, go overseas with family + boy, worker harder to earn more money so that i can shop and lan all i want. HAHA dreams :)

Met yunzhu, xie, gen, ama and peijing in the same week!! I LOVE IJ I MISS IJ NJ SUCKS LIKE CRAZY SRSLY :( Bad results, annoying teachers amd crazy muggers (but fun people nonetheless). Haix i miss mass at ij :(

2011-08-02T23:45:00.002+08:00

My stamina left me for good. All I did was play 2 quarters of netball and did straight shuttle plus badminton during pe and now I'm really tired :/ and I can't pass for more than 2hours straight anymore. How did I do it during O's? 8am-11pm every damn day until the last day of O's. I need to get my motivation back asap or I'm doomed.
Can't wait for the super long weekend so that I can get down to studying proper instead of doing that endless pile of homework. Omg :(

Mug mug mug can't finish stats rev package by tmr :( but I'll finish it soon I promise :D by the end of the wk max! And STUDY PHY omg your physics is so lousy haix :/

2011-07-28T15:37:00.002+08:00

I cannot let this go on any further. Your selfish ways are not doing me any good. I let you pull down my ct grades, annd I can't let you pull prelims and a's down. Hate me for all you want, but I need to be nice to myself. Pointless waiting and too much distractions will just lead to my failure. And I get too affected by your mood, and it just so happens that you're not a very happy person. Hope you'ld understand.
And yes you owe me money I'm broke now. Hinting but you didn't seem to get it.

2011-07-27T23:44:00.002+08:00

I'm so tired. So sick and tired of everything. I'm sick of feeling like shit every single day, worried about you, you and A's. So damn tired but there's just much to do and thhink about. I can't bring myself to go any further. The same shit every damn day.

But at least I know that there are people out there who cares. Thank you for making life more bearable. :)

2011-07-23T00:23:00.001+08:00

Haix I feel so guilty for leaving you there for the whole night. I should have stayed up and accompanied you. Sorry :(

So much work, so little motivation. Why so screwed manz

2011-07-21T22:43:00.001+08:00

So fucking annoyed for no goddamn reason. Fml srsly someone kill me already.

Is it that hard? Must you disappoint me time and time again? I hate your empty promises.

2011-07-20T23:20:00.000+08:00

Argh i need to ffffffffully launch soon.

2011-07-15T15:20:00.002+08:00

Serious lack of updates. :/

Had a really memorable birthday that started out with a really pleasant surprise, followed by cip, dinner, lan-ing and stoning at my place. I purposely went to buy alcohol at shop and save so that I get to show off my id (IM LEGAL :D) but the cashier didnt ask for it. :/ do I look that old? Anyway, I know its abit late, but thank you team for that surprise and those who wished me for your birthday wishes. :)

Ct results were like crap. I flunked 2 subjects like how fantastic is that? Prelims are in 5 weeks and I cant bring myself to start studying. Why am I so hopeless?

So anyway watched harry potter ytd! (Release date!!) I went through so much trouble booking the damn tickets online only to find out that they still had seats left. I paid an extra dollar for the booking fees :( okay wtv it was all worth it for harry :) Cant believe that that was the last of the hp series. And it wasn't as good as I've expected :( But its still hp omg my life feels so empty now LOL.

Okay no more movies and playing for the next 10 weeks. Byebye life don't leave me I'll be back for you the moment a's are over.
Argh I hate my life.

Oh last thing. BOY BOUGHT ME THAT CHIO BB CASE hahahah thank you boy <3

2011-07-03T03:39:00.002+08:00

Just like the good old days, where i stayed up and cry my eyes out while watching sad sad dramas. Hahaha A's please leave soon i need to continue living like this. :)

Okay im probably gonna get screwed cos i was supposed to be asleep one hour ago. Heh opps :p

2011-06-30T13:11:00.002+08:00

Why does everything feel so different now? It like you don't care anymore. Or perhaps it was always like that, just that I never noticed. How disappointing. I always thought you were unlike the others. But I guess you are just like everyone else.

So why should I bother if you don't?

2011-06-24T01:34:00.002+08:00

Just finished marking sampling and the 09 ct paper for maths. And as usual i was freaking careless and so i did really badly. Haix fml i still can't do vectors. Oh yes and i spent the whole afternoon doing complex but i couldn't even complete the complex exercise in the revision package. But well that's all i'm gonna do for maths. I need to move on. I'm gonna chiong physics like a mad man from tmr so hopefully i'll scrape an E for cts. Lol i need to be more ambitious.

2011-06-21T16:36:00.002+08:00

I hate studying. It zaps every single tiny bit of my energy away and by the end of probably 3 chapters of chem, I'm about as alive as an eight year old dog. Haix I seriously can't wait for A's to end :/

I wanna go shopping I wanna buy all the nice clothes and pens and books and most importantly, that blue polkaadot cath kidston bb phone case. Omg that case is mad chio luh but its freaking expensive haix :/ hint everybody my birthday is coming (LOL thick skin much)

Heh boy made me cry ytd for good reasons ily heehee.

2011-06-17T21:46:00.001+08:00

Do you even care?

2011-06-17T01:46:00.002+08:00

AHHH HARRY POTTER OMGOMGOMG <3

2011-06-14T20:26:00.002+08:00

Had a great time at uss and I bet it'll be a whole lot better if I didn't feel like puking at the start :/

So is back to reality tmr. Cts are less than 2 weeks awayy and I better buck up and mug like a mad man. I shall finish my math revision package tmr and start studyingg for physics if I don't wanna fail physics too badly.

Oh and dieting starts tmr (for real). I feel so squishy :( fml :/

The scenary at night at vivo is so pretty. And its so windy :D I can sit here forever heh.

2011-06-10T19:28:00.002+08:00

Hahahahaha
Somebody's here!
I <3 my mummy! :)

2011-06-09T14:57:00.001+08:00

I'm so annoyed now. Maybe its cos I'm stuck at integration. Sighs I'm gonna fail my A's at this rate

2011-06-04T00:07:00.002+08:00

After htht-ing with yunzhu, I realised that we all suffer from the same fate. We really hate our lives. And I guess I shouldn't be complaining, since I brought everything upon myself. I chose this school, and I chose this cca. And I decided everything that I'm going throught in this two years of hell. But on the bright side, everything is coming to an end. Sucky jc life is gonna be over in a few months time. Bye bitches I hope I'll never see you again.

I miss my ij friends really badly. :(

One fine day I should compose a super long email and send it to that bitch since you like sending emails so much. Then WHY ON EARTH did you get an iphone? Just use a bloody nokia its definitely gonna be of a greater use than your bloody iphone. Fml srsly if I joined band I'll probably have it better. Or better still I should have left when everyone else did. I'm sure that I would have been better ooff that way. Ohmygod I've had such hate towards any teacher in my whole life. Not even to tanpohgeok. Fmlfmlfml.

And you don't seem a tad bit interested.

2011-05-26T00:22:00.002+08:00

So I'm stuck sleeping on the sofa for the next one week because my sister is sick and I can't sleep with her(cts are coming :/) argh she better get well soon so that I can go back to sleep on my comfy comfy bed.

And yes I'm not gonna change my bloglink cos I realised that I WANT you to read this. As much as I'm childish and blahblahblah, I just wanna let you know that I'm freaking disgusted but how bias you are. You rather let me sleep on the sofa and ache the next day(one week omgee) than to let me stay over at someone else's house. So bitchy I swear ata least give me a reason or at least show me that you actually bothered considering what I had to say and now just give me a 'No.' Gosh I really hate you.

2011-05-20T23:54:00.000+08:00

Econs and gp in approx 5 days and the only thing that I've studied so far is the definition of 'standard of living'(is that even important?).

I'm really amazed by how easily irritated and anal I am recently. I blame it on my period :/ thank you boy for being there for me, not getting angry at me for scolding you for no reason, and tolerating my crazy temper. I know that I'm not an easy girl to handle but you never gave up on me. Thank you ♡

I'm scared :/

2011-05-18T00:19:00.000+08:00

I feel so fat. I'm uberly disgusted with the amount of food I've been eating recently.I've probabaly eaten enough to feed 2 cows, 1 elephant, and a few dogs. Haix :( and yes I know I have better things to worry about like my A's and not my weight. :/ WHY I SO FAT?

Well cts are up in a week's time and guess what? I haven't started studying for it. I feel so slack I haven't been studying like I should have. I studied more for O's than for A's but O's are like so freaking easy as compared to A's. :(

I need retail therapy.

What doesn't kill us makes us stronger. We'll get closer to each other and know each other even better after we sorted out our differences right? We'll never leave each other and I promise that I'll stay by your side no matter what. Love you.

2011-05-15T01:25:00.002+08:00

Burnt and in pain (and about to peel in 2 days), but it was all worth it. I really enjoyed the day despite the fact that we didn't do much. It was fun tanning, dinnering and breaking my curfew unintentionallly. What made it better was that my mum wasn't anal about it. Ily boy we'll be at uss next month <3

Read 'Dear John' as a bedtime story but I ended up tearing and now I can't sleep because I keep thinking about him going for ns next year. :( hahah I sound obsessed I should shut up.

Things to note:
Gp/ Econs common test (which I have yet to study for I'm screwed :/)
Syf showcase w yz and tai :)

I need to get motivated and mug harder!!!!!

2011-05-11T18:06:00.002+08:00

Why is it that the same thing keeps happening over and overagain? Just because I choose to keep mum sometimes doesn't mean I don't give a damn, or that I'm fine. I'm just trying to save us from another fight. But you don't seem to understand. Everytime you upset me, instead of trying to cheer me up, you choose to make me feel guilty. And yes you win. I feel damn guilty all the time despite the fact that I didn't do anything wrong. You don't deliver your promises, and at times, I really feel that you don't give a fuck about me. You have no idea how I ffelt when you walked away just now. You chose work over me. Get your work to wait for you the next time you stay back. Get your work to watch you sleep next time. I'm not important to you after all, and I guess I have to thank you for letting me know. I rather this that have you play with my feelings until you get tired of me. I'm
really sick of all this. Really.

2011-05-10T23:26:00.000+08:00

I HATE MY MUM. PERIOD.

2011-05-08T23:31:00.002+08:00

Spent the past 3 days literally rotting. I'm actually really impressed by my ability to put aside all that I have to do and stone my day away. But honestly speaking, those 72hours wasted was probably the best 72 hours I've had in a really long time. I love you boy thanks for rotting with me. :)

But its back to reality cos I cannot be wasting anymore precious time now that A's are coming. I need to at least complete 3chem tutorials, normal dist tutorial, gp essay (argh) and study for physics lecture test tmr. I doubt I can finish this lol :/

How I wish I was still in j1. I can't screw up my A's :(:(:(

2011-05-07T18:03:00.001+08:00

POLAROIDS!!! <3

2011-05-01T20:38:00.003+08:00

Had an awesome day today. Woke up super late to meet boy, did abit of econs (fiscal mcq and structured), then went down to his house. We were supposed to be mugging but obviously we failed quite miserably lol. Well guess i'll just mug harder tomorrow :)

Meeting Bens tomorrow!!! :) :)

Yes i know but i can't help it. :/

2011-04-29T00:32:00.000+08:00

I am so gonna fail my math lecture test despite having studied for it. I think this preempt my failing of A's. Oh wells :/

XZ offered to accompany me to watch the soccer match today. I am amazed that i actually went down because i really think that soccer is damn boring. Hahaha didn't help that nj was pretty demoralised and they didn't have any fighting spirit. But still, good job boy. I am so proud of you :)

I DON'T WANNA GO FOR THE CIP ON SAT NONONO I have no time to study for chem :(

2011-04-23T22:03:00.002+08:00

I bought new shoes! (Finally). And a damn cute eeyore keychain. Broke now but wtv :) Wasted the whole day again. All I did today was my carboxylic mindmap :/ Well guess I'll make better use of my sunday. Oh and yesss meeting yz pretty darling tmr for dinner she's got a bb too! Blackberry ownz thanks.

Starhub has the worst customer service you can ever imagine. Oh wait there is no service. Just a bunch of people giving you different instructions which leads to nothing being solved.

Oh and I have successfully killed my diet plans yet again by binging on fatty food nearly every single day. Yay to the ~~fat~~OBESE me.

i dont want to feel this way.

2011-04-22T23:59:00.004+08:00

Got back my bb finally! :) And i finally finished nuclear physics tutorial and the gp essay! Uber proud of myself thanks.

Had damn bad cramps and i nearly died. But thank god flew to 7eleven and bought me hot pink panadol heh thank you boy. :-*

Queensway tomorrow hope i can find my shoes!

If I die young, bury me in satin
Lay me down on a bed of roses
Sink me in the river at dawn
Send me away with the words of a love song

2011-04-19T23:49:00.002+08:00

i get jealous way too easily. And i have the tendency to get upset over the smallest thing. Omg what is wrong with me? I used to be very logical- i can tolerate everything that annoyed me if i feel that it'll make life better for everyone. But now, im always getting upset for the smallest smallest reasons. :/ doesnt help that im not the only one getting affected.

I need to stop eating im way too fat omgee :( mind over cravings thanks :x

2011-04-19T00:26:00.001+08:00

Headache and stomache. fml.

I cant believe im saying this, but i need to shop(arent you girls out there proud of me? ^^). I need school shoes, a wallet, denim shorts and more chio bb cases. And speaking of bb, Blackberry should totally extent my waranty by a month for this sad 31 days that i'll be waiting for it to come. Freak i want my bb :(

2011-04-17T00:56:00.002+08:00

Meeting yz today really made my day despite the fact that i had to travel all the way to holland road/clementi area. Ily pretty darling we will meet again soon okay! :)

I swear i will start dieting tomorrow. If you see me eating, slap me thanks. Gosh i'm such a undetermined loserish fat fuck.

So it has been 2 months and about 4 days. Are we still going strong? Will you give up on me like how i nearly gave on you? Is this how its all gonna end?

2011-04-08T23:58:00.002+08:00

Back to ij was the best best friday morning of the year. Even Ij's air was so much more breathable than nj's. Despite the fact that i missed chem tutorial, i am actually quite thankful that i went down because i met wonderful teacher that i never knew existed. There are good teachers in Nj! Surprise! Those that don't put you down every lesson (and those that can empathise when i tell them that i have four hours of gp a week with my beloved sp). I see hope in nj omg :)

The whole pw hoo-ha got me really upset this morning. I told myself that i'll never cry in school in front of so many people but when i got my results i couldn't help but break down. You knew that i was trying so hard to hide my emotions so you tried to ask me to leave the hall (and got scolded by me because of that) and when i finally left the hall you sat beside me all ready to pick me up, and i am really thankful for that. I love you.

Somehow god convinced me (once again) that putting in your all does not guarantee that you'll do well. I wasted all my time, countless nights working on dumb banners and power points while others were at their ccas (get this clear i am not saying that yall didn't contribute), and this is what i get. I really felt like an utter failure (yet again). :/

On the bright side, because of my emo-ing, i htht-ed with Janice! It has been long since we did that :) And i am really glad that we did it, despite how stupid we may look when we cried in the canteen talking about shitty jc life. And it was also because of this that i found out that i had friends who cared. Thank you xiaodi, hanwen and ck for your msges. It really cheered me up. These are the friends that you want to keep, not those who roll their eyes at you the moment they see you. Sheesh.

Oh CONGRATS BOY FOR WINNING YOUR MATCH!!! I am so uberly uberly proud of you! You lead your team to your first win and i hope that there'll be many many more wins to come. :D And thanks for making me so happy by the end of the day. (L)
HAHA and i love how mr low says that you look like a Vietnamese hahahahaha. Regular boarder hahahahhaahhaha :):):)

6 more days!

2011-04-02T23:44:00.002+08:00

I used to think that I wasn't that hopeless as a person. I may not be the smartest, the most atheletic, but at least I would do well enough. But my self esteem just got crushed when I failed my sbj. Okay it sound really superficial but at that very moment I felt really useless. And it didn't help that I was failing at school work as well. I really really felt like a failure. People don't seem to understand, but I don't blame them, especially since I feel stupid when I'm typing this lol. Well the worst part was that I felt more upset about failing my napfa than about (confirm) failing my org chem test. :/

Freaking unproductive fridays and weekends. I need to study more howwwww.

Sometimes I wonder why I even bother. I'm so used to it I'm numbed. I don't even feel upset anymore. Its true when people say that people don't cherish things that you own. I give up and this is definitely a bad sign. :(

2011-03-27T23:58:00.003+08:00

A very unproductive weekend. All i got done was some chem mind maps, quantum 1 tutorial and 2 gp reading assignments. But heck i'll just spend my waiting time tomorrow more productively. Must finish up carbonyls mind map and probability and stats tutorial! Oh and 3 more gp reading shit haixx :(

I'm still uberly disgusted by the amount of food i am stuffing down my face everyday. I am such a fat fcuk but i just cant stop eating. What is this? :// Heck at least i am happy :)

I had one of the best days of my life today, despite the fact that we were just sitting there rotting most of the time. And i really hate how i always make you so upset over the smallest things. Thank you for being there :)

2011-03-18T19:07:00.002+08:00

Haven't been focusing much this holidays, but on the bright side, my homework's nearly done (excluding physics). I will complete my econs essay tomorrow and finish up complex 2. And if i can find the time, i'll move on to carboxylic acid tutorial. Hee :)

Friendly on Wed was a pretty good experience. I was uber proud of my team. My cute lil sec 2s were playing against the Bdiv of the other schools and they didn't get trashed too badly. Even the sh1s(with like.. 2 weeks of experience?) played really well. I feel like a mother watching my kids get married. Hehhh. Oh but i played really badly, my passes were like shit and i lost my wallet (which was found btw :)) but wtv at least my juniors enjoyed themselves. We'll own during carnival! And we'll have the best Bdiv/Adiv team next year! Yall are probably the only reason why shuxian and i are staying on.

I have grown so much fatter so much so that i disgust myself with the amount of food i eat. But then again, i think mel's right. Nothing matters so long as you're happy, and i am really happy. So what matters? I need to stop being so self conscious, especially with the way i look. I may be fatter and all, but at least i got my life back (and my period lol). If the world is really gonna end next year at least i'll go to heaven (or hell wtv) without regrets :) Yay for the fat me! Yes judge me if you will i don't freaking care anymore.

I have a million things to say, but i have no idea how to put it across without sounding too stupid. & somehow you haven't been able to make me feel safe. And if you're sensitive enough, don't ask me about this thanks

WHY DID TUMBLR DIE ON ME??? :( :( :(

2011-03-17T00:09:00.001+08:00

Ugh time to get a new wallet. I hope that whoever who stole/found my wallet would be kind enough to give me back the stuff that you wont need, like my ic and ezlink card. ARGH :(

Thank you baby for staying with me :)

2011-03-14T00:58:00.001+08:00

Best day spent with my favourite person in the whole world :) Happy 14th March.
Hello Kitty owns doremon btw!

Mugging starts tomorrow i WILL finish all my econs homework tmr.

2011-03-13T00:10:00.002+08:00

Okay i found this on the net i know its an old joke but wtv i had a good laugh reading it :)

Q: How Many Raffles JC students does it take to change a lightbulb?
A: 0.0000001. Each student is too busy topping the A Levels, sports, performing arts and partying at the same time

Q: How Many HwaChong JC students does it take to change a lightbulb?
A: The whole school, to compete with RJ

Q: How Many Victoria JC students does it take to change a lightbulb?
A: The whole school.. one to screw it in and the rest to cheer and wave flags and banners to give him/her support

Q: How Many National JC students does it take to change a lightbulb?
A: NO LIGHT STILL CAN STUDY!!! (ikr nj muggers ftw)

Q: How Many Anderson JC students does it take to change a lightbulb?
A: They’re too busy trying to be one of the Top 5 JCs

Q: How Many Anglo-Chinese JC students does it take to change a lightbulb?
A: None.. they use all their money to employ someone else to do it for them

Q: How Many Yishun JC students does it take to change a lightbulb?
A: None… only one teacher to tell them what a lightbulb is in the first place and to demonstrate

Q: How Many Catholic JC students does it take to change a lightbulb?
A: They like it dark

Q: How Many Jurong JC students does it take to change a lightbulb?
A: None.. their Physics is so bad their male teachers cry…

Q: How Many Tampines JC students does it take to change a lightbulb?
A: Would they bother??

Q: How Many Meridian JC students does it take to change a lightbulb?
A: None. They’re too busy keeping themselves from being retained

Q: How Many Saint Andrew’s JC students does it take to change a lightbulb?
A: None. They believe in praying for it

Q: How Many Nanyang JC students does it take to change a lightbulb?
A: None. They’re still using oil lamps.

Q: How Many Serangoon JC students does it take to change a lightbulb?
A: Huh, wat lighttbarb?

Q: How Many Innova JC students does it take to change a lightbulb?
A: School too new, no electricity yet

Q: How Many Pioneer JC students does it take to change a lightbulb?
A: Heck - lets all do 300 jumping jacks as punishment for improper attire

2011-03-12T01:17:00.002+08:00

netball got second for cca relay! im uber proud of my juniors! :) and solaris owned track meet!!

so finally, its the start of holidays i srsly hope that i can catch up with work this week. i need to study mr low said if i don't pass the next org chem test i'll drown in the sea of gossips :/ heehee i love mr low :)

i love htht-ing with my mum and spending time with boy, although i fell:/ so embarrassing.

and stay safe mr lee.

2011-03-09T23:25:00.002+08:00

This is probably the first time in my entire jc life where i am actually having so much difficulty trying to catch up with work. I have been failing every test (other than math and gp :/ ). And like school work is not enough, i still have to deal with cca (and cca teacher) related stuff.
But thank god for you baby for being there for me all the time (especially during that superemo cry after every training period). Can't wait for tomorrow. :)

But then again, insecurities kill.

2011-02-20T21:37:00.002+08:00

I don't wanna go back to school tomorrow. I still have work left undone, i haven't bought my new shoes (queensway epic fail) and i haven't slept enough. I am tired :(

Goodnight world.

We're like benzene :)

2011-02-20T01:47:00.001+08:00

i really hope that i'm just thinking too much.

2011-02-13T15:21:00.002+08:00

I hate it when my parents invite people to the house and those people start making so much noise and i cant concentrate on anything else. Fml :( And i stayed in the kitchen to avoid them and (very conveniently) ate up all the food. Chips for four consecutive days omg :( :(

When things start to get better, i start doubting everything. I mean, my life hasn't been good, so why should it now? Insecurities omg srsly I need to stop thinking too much.

2011-02-12T11:31:00.002+08:00

Walk in is finally over. So many months of hard work and late night practices just for that 7 odd mins on stage, but it was totally worth it. I daresay that our performance was really really good. I am so proud of yall Solaris OGLs :)

Time to start studying.

2011-02-08T22:04:00.002+08:00

This 2 months were probably the busiest years of my life. Training, school work, walk in pracs and cca stuff are like piling up on me. I really cant wait for Friday to come so that i don't have to go for walk in pracs anymore. I am really tired :(

And i swear that i'm not gonna board next term. SP is by far the most unreasonable woman i have met in my whole life. And unfortunately i have to do my 2 essay outlines tonight despite the fact that she probably wont mark it.

I was really disappointed when i heard about it. And i thought we were friends. So much for trust.

2011-02-03T01:10:00.002+08:00

Orientation is finally over. GO AWESOME OG24 ILY GUYS ROCK ON! Thank you for being so fun and all despite the fact that nj's orientation wasn't exactly the fun-est thing ever. And yes thank you my fellow ogls (Bong, Bryan and Joe) for doing all the saikang that i didn't wanna do. :) You guys were awesome!

Anyway, i crashed LT5 for the cny celebrations with nearly every other ogl and im glad i did it. The performance was awesome omg i screamed so much that my throat hurts now. Last cny celebration in nj omg :(

Shopping with my darling yz and xh after school and i ended the day by talking to - and it made my sian-ed night so much better. :)

Oh and HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!!!

2011-01-27T22:12:00.002+08:00

I thought i would miss gp lecture today but no. Its really a torture to sit through sp's lecture. And her epic pronunciation of some words are not helping either. Overwhams man totally. -.-
Missing lessons because of orientation= consultations and make up lessons. Argh orientation better be fun to make up for it. And i promise to start studying after orientation. Thank god i am not lagging behind as of now. Chionging homework before orientation helped :)

I really hate how you just throw everything to me. Like come on. I have my social life, school work and my ogl stuff to handle. I don't need more stuff to stress me out even more. If you are unhappy with me, why not you just tell me in the face. Why show me your black face when i see you? Don't you understand that i have better things to do? I should have quit while i had the chance srsly :(

2011-01-24T22:25:00.002+08:00

Tumblr died on me :( Finally had a proper walk in practice for O2 which is coming is probably a weeks time. We still have this new and damn difficult dance to learn. Doesnt help that i'll miss practices because of trainings. :/ She was so goddamn anal today omgee :(

I am still looking for my pink case! And i hope that new year will come asap so that i'll have enough money to pay for my phone bill, buy a new wallet, bag and THE CHIO PINK CASE FOR MY PHONE. :)

Back to vectors 2 sianz.

:) :) :)

2011-01-23T22:36:00.003+08:00

Ugh i think i went through about 100 pages at ebay but i can't find a nice case for my bb! And even if its nice its freaking expensive. Grrr im pissed srsly OMG :( I want my chio pink case!

Starbucks date soon! Oh btw im only 6 cups away from my complimentary cup. :)

2011-01-17T17:34:00.002+08:00

I am glad to have found out all that i did today. And in a sense it made me feel stupid. I actually felt so cheated despite the fact that i kind of knew that all this was coming along. I was probably living in self denial before. But as of now, at this very current moment, I'm gonna change. I am not gonna let you mess up my mind. I am not gonna even want to know you anymore. It scares me to realise that you are actually this kind or a person. To think that i once fell for you. Well, i have always said that i am not a "normal" girl. And i will definitely not let you play with me.

This is gonna take a long time before i recover. My mood has never been worse. I was practically tearing in front of - just now. And in fact, i am so upset right now, i am practically downing the whole 1kg jug of peanut butter (or maybe i'm just greedy lol). But whatever the case, i am done here. Don't ever treat me as your backup. Don't mess around behind my back. Oh and btw, i am not the kind who forgives easily so srsly just look for who you have been talking to every night. Goodbye.

Nobody said it was easy :/ Thank god i have friends.
I should have taken drama i am a damn good actress. Ownage.

2011-01-16T20:44:00.002+08:00

I am gonna let loose today. Eat all i want, cry my eyes out in front of the computer and tv in the dark, fall asleep while eating, and sleep late. And then tomorrow, i will wake up to a brand new me. I dont need emotional issues to weigh me down. I can survive without you. Watch me :)

And then after today i will diet and lose all the fats that i gained today. Without compromising on my fitness of course.

2011-01-16T13:12:00.002+08:00

My attempts to finish vectors and efield yesterday were proven to be futile cos i realised that i missed both the lectures and my notes are not even completed. Sigh and it didn't help that xh was mugging so hard for SATs cos it made me feel uber uber guilty for distracting her.

It feels really good to let everything inside out to the people whom i trust with my life. Its really felt like you lifted the stone of my chest. Like literally lol. Thank you xh for listening to me rant (as usual). Lol i need to learn how to stop talking :)

Random, but I swear my life's damn drama its actually quite funny when i think about the stupid stuff that i did in the past. Well as of now, i am gonna take things as they come. No point in trying to make things work out the way i want them to be because, sometimes, the way i want may not be the best way for everybody. And i cannot be too selfish right.

I cant believe that i have to go back to school tmr omgeee ): Doesn't help that its a monday and i have gp. :/

2011-01-13T22:31:00.003+08:00

My 2.4 timing was freaking surprising (in a good way) :D Its not very fast but considering the fact that i have only been running long distance and slowly ever since training stopped, my timing was actually good. The fastest 2.4 i have ever ran! :) :) :)

I never knew peanut butter tasted that good. And starbucks' java chip frap is the most awesome coffee ever. Omgee i need to stop eating fats omg. Oh yes and height and weight was a disaster my weight was so freaking heavy i bet the scale would crack if i stayed up there just abit longer. ):

And yes i need to get off the internet and start studying for A's. Ever since school started, i havent been studying. But it has been the best period of my nj life. Fun, fun, no mugging, good company, gossiping and everything else. (Y) Oh and i forgot. My epic awesome timetable i actually end school at 12.30 on fridays. HEEE :D

2011-01-12T19:10:00.002+08:00

I really hate how you're messing up my mind. I wish you would do something about it: either yes, or just completely ignore me and help me get over it asap. Don't come close and back off as and when you like. And freaking make up your mind already. ):

2011-01-11T22:25:00.002+08:00

blogging from my phone! it actually works hahhahaha. anyway, im gonna flunk my chem consol and i deserve it cos i didnt study for it. and i cant do vectors and econs :( my life is screwed to think i have to take a levels this year sigh... :(

2011-01-10T21:06:00.001+08:00

I must be the unluckiest person in the world. I tyco-ed my way to a C for GP during promos, and they had to put me in C1. And of the 4 different bands (with 7 classes in each band), sp just had to teach C1. Fml srsly i have to pin up my fringe and pull down my skirt every gp lesson ): FML FML FML.

2011-01-07T00:33:00.002+08:00

Walk in tech run was awesome! Despite the fact that my umbrella screwed up on me during rehearsal (again), and how messy our hotel room service part was, the video of the actual tech run actually looked good! The only downside to today was the fact that i had to wear a yellow tank top and as you all know, yellow makes me look fat (or should i say make me look fatter than i already am) :/ Oh yes did i mention the ugly black stocking? Hahahah but wtv today was still a good day! :)
And yes i can finally remember the mass dance steps!
Dinner-ed at serene after that and we ju-ed at island creamery. We bought food from 7eleven and ate it in island creamery. And we only bought 2 tubs of ice cream after that. Heehee :) Camwhored like crazy and made a hell lot of noise there, and after that, we even danced our mass dance outside island creamery. The other people sitting around were staring at us like as though we were some aliens or something. So maybe Solaris will get Stomped! HAHAHA

OH SOLARIS YOU'RE SO FINE! ILY SOLARIS OGLS!! :D

SOLARIS!

2011-01-05T23:36:00.004+08:00

I never knew botanic gardens was actually so big. And i only found out today that it had an entrance at Bukit Timah. We actually bused down to the entrance at Tanglin only to find out that our station was at the other end of the garden. And after we reached our station we realised we were back to the bus stop where we took bus from- Serene Center. Omg. To think we were wondering why the botanic garden station was under the Bukit Timah location. -.- Totally shagged i swear after that stupid 1 hour walk in that stupid place we still had to go to habourfront for the other station games. We refused to go to Mount Faber though we decided to go shopping at vivo instead and i bought Starbucks! (& omg i bought a Starbucks card!! I just registered it online so i get a free tall drink. :D )
Shops out there should srsly consider start selling yellow tank tops and black boyfriend tees. I can't believe that both Bishan and Ang Mo Kio don't sell it.

Sometimes, i really wonder what you're thinking about. Unknowingly, i probably fell deeper than i wanted to. I got every damn thing sorted out, but its probably too late now right? Sigh... ):

2011-01-01T18:02:00.002+08:00

Had the best new years eve ever with the best company one could ever ask for. ily guys see yall on Monday when we crash yz's lecture :) AND I AM SO PROUD THAT I BROKE CURFEW BY 3 HOURS! :D

2010 was easily the worst year of my life but i am glad to have survived it. 2011 you better be a good year for me. You are gonna be good somehow (A levels omg ): ) But oh wells.
Happy 2011 everybody!

2010-12-29T23:01:00.002+08:00

Only managed to finish superposition today. I have 4 chapter of physics, 1 gp research thing, and chem left (i need to redo chem). Sigh i doubt i can finish homework at this rate. And there's still new years eve countdown with yz and xinhui, ogl camp from 4-6, walk in rehearsal on the 7th. And i still need to study for chem consol test. Ahhhh i am screwed ):

Oh btw, if you are pretty noob at sports, try not to run too much in two consecutive day. I was literally limping home because my knee nearly died on me. And i had really bad stitches (Okay this is not because of my run yest but wtv ). Hahaha but i chose to take the stairs home. 9 stories of doom. I bet my leg's gonna cramp tonight.
Well, at least i cleared my 10km in 2 days :D And i think i ran slightly more than that actually.

I need to go new year shopping soon i doubt i will have the time after school starts (not too early okay). I wanna get a plain black maxi dress, leggings, and i wanna try wearing high waist skirts and shorts. I don't care how ridiculous i look i just wanna try wearing nice clothes before 2012. Heehee :D Oh and i need new earphones mine died on me. Someone buy for me please? Just the normal apple earphones. Hahahaha okay bye.

I am scared. :/

2010-12-28T20:09:00.005+08:00

Omg i just realised that the year is ending in 4 days. And i haven't made any good out of it. Sigh.

After A's, i wanna learn how to play the piano.

2010-12-28T15:33:00.002+08:00

One of those days where i can spend time with myself. Woke up at 12noon and i have been on tumblr and facebook since then. Stuffing my face with chips, biscuits and diet coke. (Y) I will regret this later when i grow fatter than i already am and i when i realised that i could have used the time to finish my homework but what the heck i just want to be happy today.

All alone but happy and contented :)

But having said that, i am looking forward to meeting yz and xh on new years eve for k and countdown! Yz and i bought the best present xh could ever imagine (HAHAHA) i cant wait to see her expression. :D Oh yes thanks yz for the earrings. They are damn chio i swear. And i am still thinking about the wallet LOL i know i am broke thanks. ):

Anyway, section outing yest was awesome! Finally got to meet Steph and my cute lil juniors. Manshin was annoying me with her obsession over kpop omg. I love you guys can we have a FULL string bass outing soon? Matilda just stop going to work lol :D :D

I think i may have an ed i am screwed omg.

2010-12-26T12:23:00.000+08:00

I swear creaming butter with your bare hands can kill. And it takes forever Zzz. But my shortbread cookie dough is in the oven and i hope that it will (finally) not fail :D

2010-12-26T00:13:00.002+08:00

Finally done with the busy week of work and mugging. Done with almost everything except gp and physics. Not bad right! And i spent my pay on christmas presents :/

People change. And its extremely disappointing to see how people who you used to be so close with change into someone who is so different and so distant. But i guess that its because of this, we can see their true colours, and we can also see who are the ones who you would really want to stick with because they are the ones who will stick by you no matter what happens. They are the ones who are not so obsessed with themselves that they forget everybody else. Thank you friends, for always being there.
Things may be different now, but i am not complaining.

Sometimes, i wish that i was a little more hesitant. Had i decided to give it more time, things may be different now.

I feel bad for ponning Solaris outing tmr but what the heck. Ij>Nj anytime :P And i srsly need to stop eating omg omg omg ): ): ):

2010-12-19T00:22:00.002+08:00

I will miss my seniors very very much. If you all are reading this, Thank you for being such awesome seniors and thank you for constantly being an inspiration to me. All the best :)

And thank you juniors for helping me plan farewell :D

Oh yes BT IS CUTE OKAY I cant believe all of you ganged up on me and told me what bad taste i have. You evil evil people ):

Omg i just ate up half the farewell food. And a whole cheesecake (Sara Lee's!) and apple pie from Marche (which sucked). Fats omg diet tmr. ): ): ):

2010-12-16T11:14:00.002+08:00

I should be studying and attempting to finish up my holiday homework but i can't bring myself to. What happened to my nj mugging spirit? LOL but really, this may be the first time in my life that i can't finish my holiday homework (but at least i am halfway done :D). Oh yes and i can't seem to find my gc so thats an excuse not to do my math homework. Not that i want to lose something that cost $100+ though.

I am so busy nowadays i really don't have time to do anything else. I have to camp at serene macs after work just to finish my chem homework Zzz. Why did i sign up for so many things argh ): But then again, its actually quite fun so i am not regretting it.

And i am eating way too much for my own good. FATS ):< I realised that all my money goes into food since i don't normally shop. And i happen to like to eat expensive food omg (like starbucks and expensive cookies). :/

I am not thinking about it. I am not thinking about it. I am not thinking about it.

2010-12-14T10:52:00.004+08:00

The Cambodia Ocip was probably (okay this sounds cliche) the most meaningful and fun trip i had in my whole life. Although we didn't go there to build houses or to paint walls, but i am sure that we left the Cambodian kids with memories that they will never forget. And likewise, i am sure nobody in Project l.O.V.E would ever ever forget about this trip. Despite the fact that we only spent 3 days in the school (and another day climbing all the temples -.-), we fostered such strong bonds with them and its pretty surprising! Bong told me that one of the Cambodian kid actually messaged him yesterday.

And yes, before i forget, thank you games comm (Eunice, Bong, Bryan, Qi Guang and Adriel) for giving me such an awesome and fun time in Cambodia, especially with all our late night monopoly dealing, painful planning for wet weather activities (educational hangman LOL), magazine photo shoot at the temples, camwhoring sessions with our "branded" sunglasses, having intense discussions about how different types of shit looks like, and inventing new words and songs (anus water :D). Thank you for being the best committee ever! (oh ya and all our "researching" in bytz!)
Anyway, i am damn busy with trainings, walk in pracs, and work. Damn the work part if it wasn't for my wonderful parents, i wouldn't have to work. But i actually enjoy walk in pracs! The most fun group of people (more than half of games comm) are in Solaris! And it is actually quite fun to learn how to dance and surprisingly, kpop aint that bad. But then again, there is walk in prac nearly everyday next week and one on Wednesday from 2 to 6. :/ How am i supposed to finish my holiday homework? I am not even half done Zzzzzzzzz.

2010-12-04T15:55:00.002+08:00

I See The Light - Mandy Moore and Zachary Levi

All those days watching from the windows
All those years outside looking in
All that time never even knowing
Just how blind I've been
Now I'm here, blinking in the starlight
Now I'm here, suddenly I see
Standing here, it's all so clear
I'm where I'm meant to be

And at last I see the light
And it's like the fog has lifted
And at last I see the light
And it's like the sky is new
And it's warm and real and bright
And the world has somehow shifted
All at once everything looks different
Now that I see you

All those days chasing down a daydream
All those years living in a blur
All that time never truly seeing
Things the way they were
Now she's here shining in the starlight
Now she's here, suddenly I know
If she's here, it's crystal clear
I'm where I'm meant to go

And at last I see the light
And it's like the fog is lifted
And at last I see the light
And it's like the sky is new
And it's warm and real and bright
And the world has somehow shifted
All at once, everything is different
Now that I see you, now that I see you

2010-12-04T12:48:00.002+08:00

Cambodia trip on Monday. Honestly, i am not looking forward to it. The 20 of us met nearly everyday this week to plan all the stuff we were gonna do there and srsly speaking, the meetings were a waste of time. Half the time was spent in bytz playing cs Zzz. Sigh hopefully the trip would not turn out as bad as i think it will be.

Walk in practices, on the other hand, was actually more useful than the dumb cambodia meetings. We actually settled our couple dance, the girls solo and the guys solo! And it actually looks kinda good :D I think we are short of guys for the couple dance actually so maybe i should volunteer myself to dance the guys part. (Since i act like a guy LOL) HAHA anyway, the dinners with the Solaris Ogls were damn epic! All the lame sick jokes from Bong and Janelle's weird laughter were damn entertaining. We should go out for dinner more often :D

And Joe, I STILL WANT MY STARBUCKS!

2010-12-02T23:11:00.003+08:00

Friendly with Holy Innocence was pretty good i must say. Considering the fact that this is the juniors first match, they were actually pretty good! I played 2 quarters and i was pretty bad but nvm forget it LOL.

RAPUNZEL WAS FREAKING AWESOME OMG although it was a pretty cheesy movie, it was really good! Maximus was freaking funny and Pascal was so so so cute!

Omg fav seen! When the both of them were singing on the boat. Damn sweet omg omg omg :D

Pascal is damn cute i swear. (yes i cant believe that i am calling a chameleon cute)

Okay and btw, I GOT FREE STARBUCKS MOCHA FRAP! Call me a jew or what i don't care. All that matters is that i got a cup of coffee for FREE HAAHAHAH. Normally it would have cost me $5.50. :D Hee i am so so so happy. Great company, cheap movie plus free coffee = a very high + happy Shimin. Yes i am so happpyyyyy :D :D :D

2010-11-30T21:27:00.002+08:00

I think i am addicted to playing cs. Zzz the games comm actually took the effort to finish lunch early so that we can play for a longer time. Omg and i am always the only girl (and the only noob) playing. But whatever i am improving okay at least my kill > the times i get killed LOL. (:

Although i'm shag-ed ttm from yesterday, i feel super happy today! We cleared the air and that's one thing to be really :D about. No more awkward moments lol. And upon self reflection (LOL don't judge thanks), i realised that i have the greatest friends in the world. So to all my friends out there (especially new bestfriend), thank you for always being there for me. I know i tend to rant alot so thanks for tolerating with it. COKE TMR OKAY! And I changed my tumblr theme :) It took me damn long to edit the theme but i did it and it looks nice now. Hee so happy! :)

I have to go to school nearly every day for Ocip meetings and OGL walk in prac, and i have to be in Hougang at 8am on Thursday omg i stay in Bishan. How long will it take for me to reach there :/

I WANT MY DIET COKE NOWWWWW :X

2010-11-28T21:06:00.002+08:00

Friday: Last day of school was awesome! After school I had to rush out to coro to print pictures for the cca board and Joe decided to accompany me (thanks thanks you're so nice). Then he had some council stuff and we had to rush down to orchard to buy stuff. We had to rush (again) back to school cos he had to deliver the stuff and i had to submit my board. I didn't feel like going home, so i CS-ed in bytz. It was epic fail i was getting killed the minute i became alive again. But it was seriously damn fun. Watched the Terra people practice for walk in after that, (laughed at somebody), then went to island creamery with Garry and Bong. Went to J8 after that and HTHT with - after that! Omg i love hthts (: See what an awesome way to spend the last day of school.

Saturday: Woke up early to bake for fhl but my mum was washing clothes so i couldn't bake. I had to rush after that so that i could finish baking and get to work on time. Working again was actually kinda fun. Its nice to see how Richard and Janelle still remembered how i hate making tuiles and how my favourite coffee is latte. Xinhui came to visit+eat+wait for me to end work she's so nice. Bus-ed down to ij for fhl (we bought smoothie!!). I LEFT MY SPECS AND MY PRESENT IN IJ OMG IM SADDED and blind. SIAN and i have no time to go get it back. Sighhh. Okay anyway, supper-ed with the twins, Monica and Zena after that. Gossip gossip with Monica about all the Nj stuff it was super epic (:

Sunday: Lunch with the VIPs! I still can't believe that i got lost. Before today, i didn't know that "the Cathay" existed. Omg can you believe it? Haha anyway we're still bitching about -. Jeremy's story on how he was maligned (by that woman) was super funny and epic! After lunch we got pulled by some person for some campaign thingy and we're supposed to write 6 words about life. So yup everybody decided to sabo me by helping me write "Fat is not everything, eat more" -.- We got our photo printed out but Zixin dropped it on the way so we went searching for it. Turns out that the super efficient cleaners of Singapore swept it up. He dropped it for barely 30seconds! Haha we got abit lost looking for Gong Cha but we found it at the end. Left after that and met Amanda! It was awesome catching up with her and updating each other on our lives. Ily amanda meet soon okay! :D

Super busy day tmr. Training + Ocip meeting+ Walk in prac. ):

Sigh i feel super guilty for doing this but as i have said before, i don't want to hurt you again. I hope you understand that i am not trying to play with your emotions but just trying to stop things before it gets out of hand. I am really sorry.

2010-11-23T21:17:00.002+08:00

Just one of those days that i am feeling a bit down for no reason. I hate going home early. Makes me all upset for nothing.

I miss camp ):

2010-11-22T22:44:00.002+08:00

YLTC was the most awesome camp that i have attended in my entire life (It owned the primary 5 and the sec 3 adventure camp flat)! Despite having to hike with my 1341436405kg bag for so freaking long before realising that we were hiking in a big circle, getting stuck on the tree during tree climbing, swimming in the muddy river looking thing and actually scooping mud to smear it on ourselves to try and win group 1, waking up at 3.50am to carry ZhengPeng and to run to get our group flag, getting owned my Renfred when he shot me in the head during paintball, practicing hard for campfire(joined first with group 7!!) but still getting overall 9th place in the camp, and embarrassing myself by crying on the last day, i must say that i really really enjoyed myself.

To my darling VIPs (Lisin, Sue-Ann, Meryl, Zhi Xin, Jenny, Zheng Peng, Jeremy, Zi Xin, Chang Jie), you guys have been really awesome throughout the camp. Although yall started as a quiet bunch, we all opened up eventually and we really bonded together. This bond we share would never ever be replaced! ROCK ON GUYS WE SHALL HAVE OUR BUFFET OUTING SOON OKAY!! :D

Oh and yes i was craving for bread and coke so much during camp that i ate about a gazillion calories worth of bread with diet coke for dinner. Zzz so much for dieting.

2010-11-17T19:02:00.004+08:00

Harry potter was freaking awesome is was so worth my waking up at 7ish am :D This is the beauty of not reading the book before you watch the movie because (obviously) there will not be any expectations or disappointments since you dont know what to expect! And Its feels good to be watching it on the first day with the same people i watched hp6 with (first day also). Hahahaha im so happy right now i love hp (Y)

And i think that this symbol is damn cool. The Elder Wand, the Resurrection Stone, and the Cloak of Invisibility. If it was made into a necklace it would be so pretty! OMG i should go find one.

Emma's short hair is actually quite nice. And tom is freaking hot OMG

AHHH MEGA-CUTENESS

And i swear Emma is damn pretty omg.

Okay end of fangirling. Anyway, yltc's tmr! I am actually quite excited despite having to miss lectures and 2 trainings. But heck hopefully yltc would be fun :D But first, let me get down to packing Zzz.

2010-11-15T21:11:00.002+08:00

I am screwed i actually went to school early to do my holiday homework. Two questions away from completing the RVHS maths promo paper! Anyway, school today was a total waste of time. I practically spent all the time during lecture (especially during GP lecture) playing dismount. And Dactyl. Yes i got a high score but not as high as joe's epic 600+ points. Ogl briefing was worse. The only good thing is that i passed the uniform check by tzw! Can you believe it? I PASSED IT HAHAHA :D It was damn epic nearly everybody who walked of the lt after me asked if i got caught and when i said no, they were shocked. Heh beat that i am getting good and cheating and smoking my way through (:

Training was surprisingly good. Not good as in the "i learnt many things" manner, but rather, it felt good seeing all the little ones growing up and improving so much. Although i have not improved much (or at all), but when i see my jhs improving so fast, i was actually very happy. Weird no? And training was fun honestly. Coach training is always fun :D

; I was actually waiting, but you never came.

2010-11-11T22:22:00.002+08:00

This feels like Amath O's all over again. Like how i (we) worked so hard only to screw up so freaking badly at the very last moment. Sigh i know i shouldn't be blaming anyone now, but seriously, if we weren't so complacent, we would probably have done much better. So much for 2 thumb drives, a memory card, and a freaking board for the flyer. And to think you never bothered to check if the slides were even in the thumb drive in the first place just because nobody told you to do so. Better still, assign work for all of us to do, and then sitting there after opening a ppt without bothering to check if it was the right one in the first place. All the hard work that amounted to nothing. Yup, get pissed, bitch about me. Whatever i don't freaking care anymore. 9 months of torture and a bad ending to wrap it all up. Hmmm i need to start getting used to this (to prep for A's)

Well after op Janice, Jess Joe, Ck and i went to coro for dinner and burger shack for dessert. All the gossiping about everything in the world (including my mum lol) was damn fun. Ck was entertaining us with corny pick up lines and sick episodes of some comedy that he watched. Thank god for these people or else i would have ran out of the congested road outside nj to kill myself (hahaha obviously not). Class barbecue tomorrow with all the Kwee Peng fans at Nicholas' place! I am so excited :D

I thought i finished emo-ing in school but nope that doesn't seem to be the case. The longest sentence i said at home ever since i reached home was :"Mum i got class outing tmr". Naise (Y) And yes i hate my mum. Zzz.

2010-11-07T20:29:00.002+08:00

I feel like a fat bitch i swear i need to stop eating. I need to go back to dieting again before i turn into an even fatter pig. Okay i will stop eating (maybe after OP, after yltc, after a's..) OMG ):

2010-11-06T16:43:00.002+08:00

Met yz and xinhui over the past few days. Ily them really. Even though we meet all the time and talk about the same thing over and over again, i still enjoy spending time with yall. True friends really, true friends (:

Yz you owe my a lot of 50cents you vulgar girl. (:

Omg i have been stuffing food down my throat again idk why. I really hate myself for succumbing to my emotions so freaking easily. Is it that hard to stop thinking? I really really hate myself ):

And don't ever lie to me because if i were to find out, i'll hate you forever.

2010-11-02T21:50:00.002+08:00

My D-string snapped while i was trying to tune my violin ): ): ): But i still have 3 play-able in-tune strings so its not that bad lol.

I slept for 13 hours straight to make up for the previous few late nights that i had. Nice :D Ashraff decided to give my pw group a break since OP dry run 2 was good. Went down to queensway (and didn't get lost) to print the netball jacket and i'm freaking broke now. $150 deposit okay wth. There goes my allowance. Okay then i went to walk around and i bought mircowavable popcorn! It was actually edible and it was damn cheap. And the best part is that you could hear it popping :D

And to make up for the fact that i missed training, i went jogging just now. 7+km of epic coolness :D

This is going on better than i thought :D

2010-11-01T00:58:00.002+08:00

I MISS IJ BAND so much i actually went to Youtube to search for princess mononoke, spirited away and howl's moving castle orchestra music. Then i felt like playing my violin. -.-(wrong instrument) Haven't had this feeling in a long long time (ever since my violin was un-tuned due to some reason ). Maybe after i get my allowance i will pay yamaha to tune my violin for me LOL.

OP is actually going quite well. Done with the video, the final script, the awesome power point and the presentation part itself. I cant believe i am saying this, but maybe pw ain't that bad after all.

After PW there will be 2 weeks of lecture, yltc, HP7(!!!), FHL4, OCIP and orientation stuff. Nice :D

I should start on physics homework and start printing my math holiday homework.

:D :D :D :D :D

2010-10-30T11:52:00.002+08:00

I need to be more disciplined. I woke up early so that i can get on with my I&R draft 2, but before i know it, i was on facebook, tumblr, youtube and blog stalking people. And the best part is that my PW topic is on Internet Addiction. The irony i swear.

I promise that i will start studying after PW is over. I will finish ALL my holiday homework before the holidays end. I will buy the physics drill book and drill myself every damn day. I will do at least a full math paper every week. I will finish my chem topical tys. I will start reading(someone introduce me to a good book please! I am finishing Albom's have a little faith.). I will get my 7As for A levels (PCME, PW, Gp, chinese).
HAHA i think i am overly ambitious. A person can dream right hmph.

Lakeside for PW. SIAN ):

2010-10-29T22:34:00.002+08:00

I am contented with my results despite the fact that i didn't meet the criteria for game theory. My grades improved from CTs so i am supposed to be happy right. But honestly when i got back my results i was abit disappointed. Heck i can't set my expectations too high also. I srsly think that Joe and I are fail muggers. No matter how hard we study, we will still screw up at the end. ): Nevermind at least i can safely promote and keep my 4 H2s (: See you guys next year 10SH14! (:

So its back to pw for the next week(s). Plus training and all the meetings. Sigh so much for holidays.

HAHA and i cant believe that i told the 3L1C clan. Epic!

2010-10-28T22:05:00.002+08:00

Promo results will be out tomorrow. I seriously dont know what to expect. But hopefully, i wont be part of the 17 who is retaining and i can get my BCC somehow. I WANT GAME THEORY! ):

PW's screwed. I mean, pw exposes us to the ugly side of people. Like how my classmate got "bribed" into sitting in for my group's OP presentation and taking down notes for the other group. And how some of my group members are really -.- (I shall not spell it out too clearly here). I swear that PW made me open my eyes and helped me realise that the people around me are not as nice and innocent as they appear to be.

OP + I&R + 2 weeks of lecture to the end of J1. I can't wait.

; I feel free :D

2010-10-26T21:25:00.000+08:00

I SWEAR THAT IT IS DIVINE INTERVENTION! It was just yesterday when Joe and i were talking about how to avoid someone if we get into h3(hopefully!). And for the past few days all my 11.11 wish was made for the 3L1C clan. We must get it together okay!!

And yes. Freedom is approaching! With WR down, there's only OP and I&R left before PW is officially over. But srsly my op script is damn long and there's no way i can memorise it.

I swear there's something wrong with me. I actually got started on my holiday homework. And i have been going to the library to read up on Econs. AND i am re-reading Mitch Albom's Have a Little Faith now. I feel so inspired again :D

Should i buy a new ipod?

:)